I’m really lucky– I have a wonderful sweetie-husband who knows how to be romantic. We’re going to go out and have a night away in the near future as a way to celebrate, since I’m not fond of the Valentines crowds on the day. I have great kids, and I’m continuing my tradition of giving them chocolates and love notes for V-day.
But what I’m thinking more about lately is learning how to love myself. I know that sounds all touchy-feely, but honestly, due to many factors in my past, I did not grow up with much in the way of self-esteem. I was sure there was something- or many things- wrong with me, and if I just tried hard enough I coule fix them and be maybe kinda all right. The problem was, I could never get there, and I just kept up this cycle of being very judgmental towards myself, feeling bad, feeling shame about the way I was, and pushing myself harder.
If you haven’t guessed it, this cycle totally sucks and leads to nothing good. Even if I did accomplish a goal, I would just shrug it off and go onto the next one, because yeah, I did it but it’s not enough. And after a few hundred thousand go-rounds, I’m tired. My eyes are opened to see how bogus all this is. I can see how important it is to step away from this cycle, to really start being on my own side, to love the person I see in the mirror, and to be able to celebrate all of me– the strengths, weaknesses, quirks and gifts.
So if you don’t have a sweetie, or even if you do, I hope you’ll join me in taking back Valentines Day to a more fundamental level. It doesn’t have to just be a day for couples, a day that singles find depressing. How about taking some time to nurture yourself, to do a little pampering, savor some chocolate, and say a big I Love You to the most important person… You.