Welcome to Day 22 of my 30-Day Poetry Challenge!
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Now onto today’s poem. Don’t forget to comment, and check back tomorrow to see if you’ve won!
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Okay, not *really* poem-like, but it’s what came to me today and I had fun with it. Quirky, and it helped me work something out. So enjoy! And let me know if you can relate, or if you’re on the other spectrum of list-making.
To-Do, or Not To-Do…
Okay Theresa, to-do lists, blessing or curse? Discuss amongst yourself.
Me 1: LOVE THEM!!
I’ve got my fat planner, my pen.
I write down everything, keep track,
plan, so many reminders, jot down ideas,
short and long-term need-tos.
I don’t know how I would have raised
a family, 3 kids, without my lists.
Me 2: Whoa, wait a minute here…
I’ve been getting plowed over by you for years.
You know that little voice that whispers,
taps your shoulder, tries to get you to not
go crazy off the deep end of everything?
Reminds you how you’re trying to un-do
a lot of your programming? Yes, that’s me.
And let me tell you– lists, I’m not a fan.
Me 1: (sputters) What? How could I ever exist
without my lists? They keep me ORGANIZED.
Me 2: (shrugs) Maybe organized Isn’t Everything.
Remember what I said about the deep end? Honey,
I think you go there way too much. I’ve seen you.
You are a slave to those lists.
Me 1: (shuffles feet, looking down, then softly)
Me 2: It’s one thing to just write stuff down for the day.
But not an impossible number of tasks. A list so long
you could never do it all, even if
you were Martha Stewart on steroids.
Me 1: But I just need to write it all down or I’ll forget!
Me 2: Sure, that might be okay, but I’ve seen
how you never feel satisfied with yourself,
Berating yourself at the end of the day. I know
you’ve been trying not to, but it’s
a deeply ingrained habit. You
focus on what you didn’t do,
not what you did.
That ain’t good for either of us.
Me 1: Ugh! I see it. You’re right.
Me 2: –Wait, let me write that down. I didn’t think you’d ever admit it.
Me 1: (smirks) I know I should listen to you more.
I can see how my lists get in the way.
It feels good when I write things down.
But then they overwhelm me, SHOULD me, wave
a pointy finger at me. I’m back to 8 years old
and feeling bad. But what to do? I don’t want to
give them up? I feel the anxiety rise up
when I think about that.
Me 2: I get it. Lists as coping mechanism. You still
think you need them. So let’s work with it, break out of this
prison you’ve made. Choose 3 things off your list for the
day. They don’t have to be huge. Call that Enough and then
let us take a break. Relax. Something fun. Enjoyment.
Anything else after that is a bonus. Not required.
Me 1: That sounds…. okay.
Me 2: It might be hard to stick to, but we gotta start somewhere.
And just leave the self-talk at the end of the day to me, okay?
You haven’t listened to me much, but Sweetheart, I know
how to calm you, cheer you on, give you credit for all you do.
I’m good at that, if you’ll just listen.
Me 1: Oh, that’s right. The Nurturing One!
Me 2: And you’re the Go-Getter. We need both of us to
get what we want out of life. Write the books, fight the
medical system, relationships, therapy, travel.
We’re a team.
Me 1: I’ll give it a shot. Thanks, Me.
Me 2: Love ya, Me. Talk soon.
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- I’m writing and posting a new poem every day through the month of April (yikes!), for better or worse.
- AND, as a gift, I’m giving away a copy of my poetry book EVERY DAY this month. FREE!
- Sign up to WIN a copy of (After) Confession by just leaving a comment beneath the poem of the day.
- I will pick a winner every day in April! So comment every day for a new chance to win.
This month’s posts are part of the NaPoWriMo challenge — that’s National Poetry Writing Month. At NaPoWriMo.net, you’ll find links to other participating writers and their poetry. AND daily writing prompts for inspiration to write your own poems. Check them out.
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